I feel like I shouldn't be here anymore.

Like nothing really matters anymore...

I'm ready to start college and the next chapter in my life.

While I don't want to leave Mike or any of my friends in August

at the same time wanting to get out of my house outweighs any of that.

I'm sure alot of you feel this way.

I feel so restless.

I don't think it helps that this week I

have been doing nothing all week

and normally nothing for a week would be fun

 but this week wasn't really all that fun.

I think its because I've outgrown my family.

They are still doing alot of things for little kids

because my cousins are still so little,

its like it doesn't matter that I am 18.

Well there is so much more going on in my head

but I don't really feel like typing anymore...